The Desert of My Dreams

You should listen to this song while reading this post.

I’m not sure what it is about flying but I seem to do some of my deeper (read: better) thinking during airplane rides. Perhaps it is being so physically above everything that makes up my world. Perhaps it is the prolonged periods of time spent listening to music, looking at clouds, or just staring at the back of the seat in front of me. Or perhaps it is all the time I spend observing all the people around me. Whatever it is, I seem to almost always come off a plane with a better perspective on my life. And sometimes I even come away with a solution to a problem.

During last night’s flight to Seattle, I started thinking about my injury and how that has really derailed my weight loss progress during the past few months. My usual feelings of frustration and anger surfaced but then I realized that I am not totally helpless to the situation. There is nothing I hate more than feeling like I can’t fix a situation because it is out of my control. But the situation isn’t totally out of my control. It isn’t an ideal situation but one that I can work with. There are lots of things I can do instead of running and lots of things I can tweak to feel better about things and eventually get back to losing weight again. Here are the ideas I jotted down last night in my notebook - they’re loosely organized into food, exercise, and emotions:

food

• food I struggle with (e.g. ice cream, Ciff Bars) shouldn’t be anywhere in my apartment. When I was running three or four times a week, I could “afford” to eat ice cream on a weekly basic. This isn’t the case right now.
• get back to eating very slowly. I learned a little routine from a nutritionist last year that essentially forces you to eat very very slowly (take a bite, put your fork down, chew food slowly, swallow, take a sip of water, take another bite). This method is extremely tedious but seems to work (since you’re eating so slowly your appetite/mind has time to recognize when you’re getting full). This is the sort of thing that I don’t think I’ll ever be able to do without resenting it or feeling like it is natural but it is a good temporary measure and may help kick start things again.
• continue cooking most of my meals. I don’t really have a problem with this one (except when I’m traveling).
• continue drinking 100 oz water. Again, this one I don’t really have a problem with right now.
• only eat when I’m hungry. This one is actually a lot easier said than done but it involves the slow eating thing and usually very strongly tied to my emotions.

exercise

• get back to working out for 60 minutes/day every day. This one has slipped a bit during the past few weeks due to moving and having a really awful physical therapist who seemed to think I was going to hurt myself every time I worked out. UGGGHHH! :)
• get back to doing resistance training 2 to 3 times a week. This one also slipped due to the very conservative physical therapist.
• start taking spinning and kickboxing at the gym. I’ve never been a huge fan of exercise classes - I can’t listen to my own music and I really hate how patronizing some instructors can act to somebody of my size (I always want to tell them, “Have you ever lost 65 pounds? You haven’t? I have. Now go back to your spin bike and leave me be.”). Regardless of my anxieties around exercise classes, I think doing one or two a week will help me get some higher impact workouts and ease my boredom.
• work my way up to 30 minute swim sessions. Since I only learned how to swim a year ago, I suck at it, which means that I’m wiped out after 10 or 15 minutes.
• work my way up to riding my bike to work a few times a week. Since I learned how to ride a bike only a few months ago, I’m still not that great at it. But with a little practice (and patience), I think I can start riding my bike to work pretty soon. I may have to walk the “scary” parts of the commute (e.g. the big hills).
• stretch once or twice a day. I’ve been trying to stretch on a more consistent basis during the past few weeks.

emotions

• make sure to get enough sleep.
• when I’m angry or frustrated, I can: write, paint, cry, watch a movie, take a shower/bath, get a massage, read, buy new clothes. Essentially, I need to be less self-destructive.
• stop weighing myself everyday. Weighing myself so regularly hasn’t been very helpful lately so I’m going to try getting back to only weighing myself once a week. This one doesn’t sound so hard but it really is when you’re impatient/require immediate gratification!
• start collecting something to represent every pound I’ve lost so far. I’m a visual person so I think having something visual to see everyday would be really helpful. I just have no idea what that thing is (I’ve thought about some sort of cool figurines or Sigg water bottles. I’m open to suggestions on this one.

It is a huge list but that’s sort of the point. I can better manage/control the situation. But I’m not perfect so I’m trying to not think of it as an all or nothing kind of thing.

A friend of mine emailed me this morning wondering how I could possibly not have updated my blog since May 15th?!? She even started to wonder if her Blackberry had it wrong.

Her Blackberry didn’t have it wrong - I just haven’t had much to say lately. I wake up, I weigh myself, I get frustrated when my weight hasn’t gone down, I do stretches that are supposed to help my injury, I go to work, I attempt to workout given the limitations of my injury, I see specialists about my injury, I get frustrated about the lack of progress in the healing of my injury, I read vampire novels, I go to bed. And then I repeat the whole cycle the next day.

Being injured has sucked. I don’t have a clear diagnosis of what is really wrong with me - I have some sciatica-like symptoms in my left thigh. I have a constant tingling in my thigh, which most of the time I don’t even think about. When I do go running, I have a fairly severe pulling pain in my thigh and sometimes in my butt. Depending on who you ask, this pain might be a pinched nerve due to tightness in my glutes and other muscles in my butt (did you know that you butt does a lot of work when you’re running or hiking?). Or it might be a herniated disk that is inflaming/pinching the nerve. Or it might be a compensation injury due to an imbalance in my form. I also sometimes have pain in my lower back or tail bone but that seems to be more sporadic.

It is frustrating because I’ve been dealing with this injury since February. I’ve seen my doctor, a physical therapist, and a chiropractor. We’ve tried a bunch of different things and so far nothing has healed my leg. I’m trying to stay positive about the chiropractor since I only started treatment with him a couple of weeks ago. If that doesn’t work, I’m supposed to see yet another specialist (I can’t remember the technical medical term but I believe it is a doctor who treats the back exclusively).

This injury has been a pretty major setback for me. I’m angry, disappointed, frustrated, and generally feeling helpless and like a total failure. It is one thing to get injured when you’re skinny. It is something else to get injured when you’re trying to lose weight. I’m actually surprised with how hard I’ve taken it. I knew I was starting to love running but I didn’t realize just how much it meant to me. Not only did it enable me to stay on track with my weight loss goals, I just really enjoyed it. Running makes me feel like I’m an athlete - it makes me feel like I can do the impossible. Sure, I’m pretty slow and I can’t run that far (4 - 5 miles is the longest distance I’ve run) but it still feels like I’m doing something I’m not supposed to be able to do at my size right now. Getting on the elliptical doesn’t excite me or give me the same feelings of self-worth that running does. Running helped me sort through the various emotional and mental junk floating around my mind. For whatever reason, I can’t seem to get the same sort of clarity from any other exercise I’ve tried.

I’ve been trying to see the silver lining to my current situation but that has been a struggle. I keep reminding myself that I’ve come a long way and accomplished something that most people can’t do. I’m at the lowest weight I’ve been in 11 years. And despite my injury, I’ve still managed to maintain my weight loss. All of those are very positive things but I can’t help but think that they’re excuses. At the end of the day, I’m left with overwhelming feelings of failure, anger, and disappointment.

And that’s really why I haven’t been blogging - nobody wants to read a whiny angry post.

In more positive (but unrelated) news, I just moved to a new apartment this weekend. I LOVE the new place so far (despite having a bunch of maintenance issues).

I have a lot to be grateful for in my life right now - I’m just struggling to see past this setback.

The more that I think about the process of losing weight the more that I realize that losing weight is a rather physical process that is deeply rooted in abstraction. I find that abstract nature of the process to be fascinating, frustrating, and merely confounding. On a cognitive level, I totally understand the physical aspects of the process - eat less (calories in), exercise more (calories out). I understand and recognize all of the very physical (and sometimes mundane) things I have to do every day - prepare my food, eat right, write down my food, drink enough water, exercise, etc. But there are a lot of very abstract things that I can’t see but that are taking place in my body. The whole idea of fat forming on your body and then being burned off is so crazy! I understand that by eating less and expending more energy, my body needs energy to keep going so it uses all of the energy reserves I already have but that is still just so abstract! How does that fat get burned off and where does it go? Are there little dump trucks of fat being hauled off throughout my body to some fat burning furnace? And when does that happen? Does it happen at night? Or is it happening all of the time?

Other than monitoring the scale, I don’t really know what’s happening in my body. I may think I’m getting smaller but couldn’t it be my mind playing tricks on me? I was just thinking today that I wish there was a more physical artifact of losing weight. I would like to wake up every morning and find little blobs of me that had been burned off overnight - little blobs just sitting there detached from me. Something like that would make the process seem far more real and I wouldn’t have to second guess myself. Did I gain/lose weight on the scale because of salt? water? muscle? None of that would matter anymore because I would have physical evidence that I did indeed shed part of myself overnight. That would be terrific . . . although I’m not sure how I’d dispose of the blobs.

My weight loss has slowed down over the past month or so. I’m still averaging about a pound a week, which is great, but I haven’t had a 2 or 3 pound week in months. I think the slow down could be attributed to a number of factors - I have less weight to lose, I’m not being super strict about my food (I could work harder in this area but since I’m still losing about a pound a week I sort of feel like why bother?), and I can’t exercise as hard or as much due to the sciatica (which seems to be getting better - keeping my fingers crossed it heals completely in the next couple of weeks). During the past few weeks, I’ve been inching towards a pretty important personal milestone - getting down to what I weighed when I graduated from high school. According to the scale yesterday, I’m about 0.8 pounds away from reaching that goal. I’m pretty excited and hoping that I can lose a pound this week so that I can finally be under what I weighed when I graduated from high school. And that would mean that I’d be the lightest that I’d ever been as an adult.

I’m getting to the point where I’m running out of historical data points around my weight. When I was heavier, I had plenty of data points to reference. When I was 40 pounds heavier, that was about the same weight that I was when I started grad school. 50 pounds heavier? That was what I weighed when I graduated from college. And so on and so forth. Right now, I just know that I’m 0.8 pounds from what I weighed when I graduated high school, 20 pounds from what I weighed my freshman year in high school, and I weighed about 130 (my current goal weight) when I was in 6th or 7th grade. Three numbers. That’s it. It feels like I’m getting to an area that I’ve never been before (at least not since being a teenager) and so it’s exciting to wonder what I’ll look like, what I’ll feel like, and what size I’ll be wearing. All the numbers I’ve gone down to in the past couple of years I’ve experienced before (and not really all that long ago). This feels new.

I don’t have much to report about my life so I figured a fitness update was in order (and there really isn’t much else going on):

• When I increased the intensity of my running workouts a couple of months ago, I started noticing a sharp pain in my left thigh. The pain would usually only occur when I was running and go away after I stopped running. At first, I thought it was because I needed to get some new running shoes but my new shoes didn’t help. I then figured it was just normal soreness from challenging my body so I ignored it. The pain got so bad last week that it started lingering for a few hours after my running workouts. I decided that this couldn’t be normal so I took a break from running for a week hoping that it would heal on its own. When the pain didn’t go away after a week’s rest, I went and saw my doctor. It turns out that I have sciatica. The good news is that my doctor doesn’t think it is back/disc related and she seemed pretty optimistic that I’ll be back to my normal running workouts in a few weeks. From my understanding, it sounds like the cause of the problem might be lack of proper stretching. The muscles around my sciatic nerve are tight (which apparently happens when you exercise) so they’re causing pressure on the nerve. For now, I’m taking a week off from anything that triggers the pain - running, walking, hiking, and bike riding. I can still exercise but my options have been pretty limited this week - elliptical (not the crossramp kind since that also triggers the pain), swimming, and resistance training. I’m also supposed to take Advil 3 times a day (to alleviate the inflammation) and do the piriformis stretch. That stretch, by the way, is literally a pain in the ass - although it doesn’t seem as hard to do now as it did when I first tried doing it Monday night. Starting next week, I can get back to running (YAY) but I have to take it slow - I’m only supposed to do half of my usual workout for the first week or so. If the pain doesn’t go away after a few weeks, I have to go back to see my doctor for more intense treatment. I’m hoping that it’ll heal up sooner rather than later.
• I’m back to taking swim lessons but with a new instructor. I’ve only had two lessons so far but I really like my new instructor. She seems to really know how to work with adults and I’m seeing a huge improvement in my skills. Her availability seems pretty limited, though, so I’m hoping I can continue to work with her over the spring and summer. I was started to get really down about my swimming skills - like I’m never going to get any better because I didn’t learn as a kid. It’s nice to be excited about swimming, again. And its been great timing since I can’t run right now.
• After the whole sciatica thing, I started thinking that I really need to learn more about running. For the most part, I feel like I’ve been running blind. I knew enough to find a running plan online so that I could actually slowly progress to running a 5K and I knew enough to go to a running store and get proper running shoes for my feet but other than that, I really don’t know much else about it. I decided to buy a running book so that I could learn more about proper training and stretching. I looked through a number of books at Borders but settled on this one. Even though I’m not very far into it, I’m really loving reading this book! For one thing, since I can’t run right now, it is nice to at least think about running. The book is really positive and very encouraging. I looked at other books and some of them seemed to have a condescending tone - like spending a whole chapter lecturing you on how to get motivated. Umm . . . given what I’ve accomplished the past few years, I’m not sure motivation is my problem.

When it comes to maintaining and losing weight, travel usually tends to be a nightmare for me. The change in routine and environment makes it difficult to maintain my eating and exercise habits. I always gain weight when I travel. In the past six months, I’ve been doing better dealing with travel and instead of gaining my usual 5 pounds (or 7 or 10) in a week, I’ve gone down to about 2 or 3 pounds. Heading to Kauai, I spent a lot of time planning for my trip and really thinking about how I was going to handle food and exercise. My goal for the trip was to maintain my weight and not gain or lose any weight.

I lost a little over a pound last week.

If you’ve never struggled with your weight then you might be wondering what’s the big deal? A pound? So what? But this is HUGE for me. Not only did I not gain weight, I lost weight! On vacation! In a regular week where I’m at home, I’d be pretty happy with losing a pound or two a week (my body rarely loses any more than that). Here is what I did that helped me stay on track:

• I took some non perishable food with me - peanut butter, cereal, Kashi crackers, and Cliff Bars. Having my own peanut butter and cereal with me meant that I could still eat the same breakfast that I eat at home (For some added protein, I usually eat one to two tablespoons of peanut butter after my cereal and milk). The Cliff Bars were great quick snacks to have around when I was hiking or driving somewhere. I could always count on having a somewhat healthy snack on hand. I took the Kashi crackers since they’re a pretty good source of complex carbs and I figured I could pair them with some cheese for a snack or quick lunch.
• I went grocery shopping as soon as I found a grocery store near my hotel. I knew my hotel room had a mini fridge so I did this right before I even checked into my hotel (I didn’t want to take any chances). I’ve actually been doing this one on business trips for a while now - I’ll usually try to find a grocery store as soon as I get my rental car. I usually buy small stuff that is portable, healthy, and helps me maintain my usual eating patterns. Just to be extra prepared for Kauai, I even made a grocery list before I went. I ended up buying food like Baby Bel cheese (good source of protein and goes well with crackers, which makes for a good lunch while hiking), cherry tomatoes (quick to eat, no need to cook, easy to wash), grapes (same properties as the cherry tomatoes), apple bananas, pineapple slices, nectarines, bottled water, Diet Pepsi, and skim milk. The emphasis here was to enable eating my own breakfast, have a few things around that I could make my own lunch, have things around that are easily portable (I ate several lunches while hiking), and have enough healthy snacks around that I never got so hungry that I ended up making bad food decisions. It is a lot easier to stay on track when you’re not eating out for every meal.
• I brought some zip lock bags with me. This is one of those things that I learned from experience. It’s great to have a giant bag of grapes in your hotel room but it isn’t of much use if you can’t easily take it with you. The zip lock bags helped me make healthy food portable and still maintain some portion control.
• I stuck to my eating heuristics. For the most part, I tried to eat the same way that I eat at home. I made sure to drink at least a 100 oz of water everyday (this meant that I kept having to buy bottled water every day, which got a little annoying). I made sure to eat every four hours. I made sure to eat when I was hungry and stop when I got full. I continued to write down everything I ate.
• I usually only ate out for dinner. I usually tried to focus on eating lean proteins and vegetables. I ate a lot of fish and sushi (it helped that Kauai has some amazingly fresh seafood). And when I wanted something that I usually don’t eat, I didn’t obsess about it and just let myself have it (in moderation). For instance, one night my swordfish came with mashed potatoes. Since it was only about a 1/2 cup or cup (and I had hiked the whole day), I figured it wouldn’t cause too much damage. I usually skipped dessert or just had some fruits from my room.
• I let myself eat whatever I wanted on my birthday. I decided before I went that I could do whatever I wanted on my birthday and I think that really helped me stay focused the rest of the week. There were a few nights when I thought about getting dessert after dinner and I just figured, “Well, my birthday is in a few days and I’ll get to do that then.” Even on my birthday, I didn’t really do all that bad. For instance, I only ate about half of my entree during dinner because I knew I wanted dessert (and wanted to enjoy it instead of being miserably full).
• I maintained my activity level. Just like at home, I aimed for at least 10,000 steps, which meant doing at least an hour of cardio every day. On days that I didn’t hike, I made sure to still go for a run. I also made sure to get my three resistance training workouts/week. Resistance training isn’t my favorite thing to do so I can easily skip it or procrastinate it. Before I left for Kauai, I made sure to add the resistance training workouts to my calendar - that way, I would be less likely to skip them. On top of the hiking, running, and resistance training, I also did a little bit of swimming almost everyday.

There were also some very unique factors about this trip that made it a lot easier for me to manage. I was on vacation so I had all the time in the world to attend to my needs (not always true when I’m traveling for work). Between the hiking, swimming, and just wanting to explore, Kauai really lent itself to being active (my hometown of Edwardsville, IL, does not). I was by myself so I could take the extra time to deal with my food needs and didn’t have to deal with any peer pressure around food. And unlike going home, I had more control over my environment - I could control what I put in my hotel room (I don’t have any control over what my parents put in their fridge). I’m also not totally sure I could have continued to be so vigilant had it been a longer trip. I got a lot sloppier about my food decisions towards the end of the week. Having to plan and think about my food in a new environment (where I couldn’t cook for a week or store a week’s worth of food) got really draining! For instance, due to some lack of planning on my part, I ended up eating a bag of Gardetto’s for lunch on the flight back from Honolulu to San Jose. Gardetto’s aren’t exactly the healthiest thing on the planet and eating them for lunch made me kinda sick!

All in all, I think I did pretty well, even if the planning and thinking about food got a little tiring. I’m hoping that with more practice, it won’t continue to feel so draining.

My week in Kauai was pretty awesome. Kauai was one of the most beautiful and peaceful places I’ve ever visited and I can’t wait to go back (one of these days). For the most part, vacationing by myself was pretty nice - I got to do whatever I wanted and without dealing with other people’s issues/whining. :) I enjoyed myself so much that I’m planning on making a habit out of traveling somewhere special for my birthday (suggestions are open for my 30th). Here’s a short recap of what I did last week:

Saturday, March 7

• Spent most of the day traveling from the Bay Area to Kauai. Both of my flights (San Jose to Honolulu and Honolulu to Lihue) were delayed, which added to my fatigue. I drove from the airport to Poipu (where I was staying) and managed to find a small grocery store in Koloa (close to Poipu) where I stocked up on some healthy groceries. I went running near the beach.

Sunday, March 8

• I went swimming in the morning (mostly in the pool since I’m still scared of swimming in the ocean) and then hiked Waimea Canyon, which was my favorite hike of the entire trip. For dinner, I had some amazing sushi at Sushi Bushido in Lihue.

Monday, March 9

• On the way to the gym in the morning, I saw a monk seal sleeping on the hotel beach. Despite all the rain and mud, I spent most of the day hiking the Kuilau Trail. On the way back from the hike, I accidently veered off the road and ended up puncturing the front passenger tire on my rental car. I can’t emphasize how much this sucked (especially since I was alone). I had to wait for AAA for 1.5 hours to come and change the tire and then had to drive the car back to Hertz to get a new one.

Tuesday, March 10

• After the flat tire incident, I decided that I needed a more low-key day. I think I went running in the morning and then got a massage at the Sheraton (thanks to my sister Nabeela for gifting me a couple of massages there!). OH. MY. GOD. Best massage ever. I hung out in Poipu the rest of the day. I visited Spouting Horn (which wasn’t very spouting when I was there) and toured the National Tropical Botanical Garden (which was AMAZING). I then tried going to lunch at the Hyatt (which is near the Sheraton in Poipu) but I was too late for lunch. I spent the rest of the afternoon swimming in the pool and reading my trashy vampire novel (New Moon) on the beach (heavenly).

Wednesday, March 11

• The weather was really nice today so I decided to make the drive up to the north shore and attempt hiking the Kalalau Trail. I didn’t get very far before my fear of hiking rocky trails got the best of me and I decided to go back. I was really disappointed that I couldn’t hike it since it took two hours to get there and it is supposed to be an amazing trail. Next time. I did spend some time walking on Ke’e beach (next to the Kalalau Trailhead) and got some photos of the Na Pali Coast. On the drive back to Poipu, I stopped by the Kilauea Lighthouse. Once I was back in Poipu, I decided to hike the Maha’ulepu Trail, which was pretty close to my hotel. It was a pretty easy trail but offered some really nice views of the ocean. I think I spent more time on the beach/pool after the hike and then had an uninspiring dinner at Shells.

Thursday, March 12

• My birthday! I went running in the morning, had breakfast at Shells, then had another amazing massage at the Sheraton. I spent the afternoon in Hanapepe, touring art galleries and petting stray cats. I had lunch at the Hanapepe Cafe and then bought a couple of tiles (for me and my mom) from Banana Patch Studio. I then checked out the Hanapepe farmers market, which was disappointingly small. In the afternoon, I spent more time at the pool/beach. For dinner, I had the best birthday dinner ever at the Plantation Gardens restaurant. I ordered the island stir fry and the baked Hawaiian - both were really really good.

Friday, March 13

• My last day in Kauai :( - I tried going hiking but it got really foggy/rainy/muddy by the time I got to the trail. I drove back to Poipu, went running, and then spent the rest of the afternoon on the beach/pool. I also made sure to watch my last sunset in Kauai. For dinner, I tried the Sheraton’s sushi place, Naniwa. The sushi was great, the atmosphere and service not so much.

Saturday, March 14

• Went for a short walk near the beach in the morning then had to get to the airport. Spent most of the day traveling. Watched Alpha Dog on the plane and read more trashy vampire novel goodness. Came home to two very cuddly kitties.

Yoplait has done it again! Aside from their marketing people leaving way too many comments about my review of their revolting Yoplait Whips! Chocolate Mousse Style Yogurt, they’ve recently discontinued my favorite flavor - Coconut Cream Pie! I’ve been wondering why I haven’t been able to find it at my grocery store recently so I even checked their site and it isn’t anywhere to be found. I was so distraught at the possibility that they discontinued my favorite flavor that I even contacted them, desperately pleading that they bring it back (BABY COME BACK)! The Coconut Cream Pie flavor was a perfect pairing with berries. Now I’ve had to resort to purchasing their French Vanilla flavor, which is also good with berries but not as good as the Coconut Cream Pie flavor.

The discontinuation of Yoplait Coconut Cream Pie Yogurt can only mean one thing - Yoplait is out to get me! I so know they did this to get me back for dissing Yoplait Whips! Chocolate Mousse Style Yogurt.

There’s nothing that I hate more than an over planned weekend or vacation. I think the whole point of taking time off is to chill out and not have to adhere to a schedule! Nonetheless, there is soooo much stuff to do in Kauai so I figured some prior research and tentative planning couldn’t hurt.

My notes are all over the place so I’m going to use this blog post as an opportunity to get organized. Apologies in advance for all the extra notes and page numbers (which refer to the Lonely Planet guide book).

Here’s some stuff I’m thinking of doing in Kauai (I have these loosely organized by their location on the island):

North Shore:

• hike the Kalalau Trail (Na Pali Coast State Park - pg 156) - I’m only going to do the first two miles - Ke’e Beach to Hanakapi’ai Valley. Depending on how I’m feeling that day (and how strenuous it turns out to be), I might continue on the Hanakapi’ai Falls trail (pg 159). [Hike both of these after a dry spell.]
• Hanalei Bay (pg 143) - There are a bunch of beaches here, although it sounds like they might not be great for swimming. My book recommends Hanalei (Black Pot) Beach Park. There is also supposed to be some shopping in Hanalei. It might be good to do this one on the day that I hike the Kalalau Trail (since they look close).
• dinner cruise of the Na Pali coast - I’ve heard from a couple of people that these are well worth the expense because you get a different view in the water than when you’re hiking it. My main concern with this one is that I’ll be alone - will I feel like a total loser being on a dinner cruise all by myself? :)
• checkout the Princeville Hotel (pg 135) - apparently the sunsets here are amazing

Westside

• hike Waimea Canyon (pg 199) - I want to do the Kukai Trail (2.5 miles) and the Koaile Canyon Trail (3 miles). I’m not sure how realistic it will be to do both trails so I might only do part of the Koaile Canyon Trail. I should checkout the Waimea Canyon Lookout on the drive there. [Best time to go is on a sunny day following a heavy rain.]
• hike the Alakai Swamp (pg 211) - I want to hike the Pihea Trail (3.75 miles) to the Alakai Swamp Trail (3.5 miles). Round trip, that’s over 14 miles but the elevation change looks pretty easy (it appears mostly flat). Again, this might be one of those where I only start part of the Alakai Swamp Trail and decide to head back before finishing it. On the drive there, I should checkout the Kalalau Lookout (pg 207).

Eastside

• hike the Kuilan Ridge Trail and parts of the Moalepe Trail (pg 103) - The Kuilan Ridge Trail is 2.1 miles one way. I can walk 0.5 miles into the Moalepe Trail to see views of cliffs and waterfalls.
• drive Kuamo’o Road (HWY 580 - pg 98) to the Keahua Arboretum (pg 100) - This drive is supposed to be really scenic and I believe leads to the Kuilan Ridge Trail. It sounds like you can picnic at the Arboretum.

South Shore

• Spouting Horn (Poipu - pg 167) - best time to see it is in the late afternoon
• Botanical Gardens (Poipu - pg 167)
• swim in the ocean (Poipu) - Well, as much swimming as I can muster with my pathetic swimming skills :)
• run on the beach (Poipu) - You know just because I can do that sort of thing now. I’m actually a little worried about getting my new running shoes dirty but I guess sand washes off.
• get a massage - I haven’t had one in a few months (I know, the tragic life I lead) and I’m figuring with all the hiking I’ll be doing, I could use one! I might get one at my hotel or get one at the St. Regis in Princeville, preferably on my birthday.
• snorkeling - I really want to try snorkeling but I’m not so sure about my swimming skills. After talking it over with a few friends, I think the best option for me would be to get a private instructor/tour and ask to be in a shallow area (maybe even wearing a life jacket). My hotel offers snorkeling lessons so I’m going to check into it when I get there.
• farmer’s market - I’ve heard from a few people about a farmer’s market in Koloa where you can buy local tropical fruit and flowers. I’m going to ask about it when I get there.
• have dinner at the Plantation Gardens restaurant - this might be a good option for my birthday

I probably won’t have time to do everything on my list but I’m not too worried about it. Needless to say, I’m really really excited and simply can’t wait until Saturday morning! :)

In case you didn’t see my updates on Twitter, Facebook, or Flickr, I’ve finally hit the 60 pound milestone (if you’re my friend, see Facebook or Flickr for a before/after photo)! I actually reached the milestone yesterday but didn’t want to get too excited about it until I saw it on the scale two days in a row. I sort of feel weird making the announcement on a Thursday and not a Monday :) - like it can’t be official since the data wasn’t observed and recorded on a Monday morning (yes, I recognize my nerdiness).

Needless to say, I’m pretty excited (and proud of myself) about my progress. For whatever reason, my weight loss in 2009 seems to be moving a lot faster. I’ve been trying to follow the guidelines I laid out in my fine tuning post and I think that’s had a direct result on my recent progress.

I have to admit, though, it feels really weird to say that I’ve lost 60 pounds. Who is this person?!? Me?!? I’m not one of those people! It’s funny because I sometimes get the same thought when I’m running, “I’m running? I like running? Who is this person?!?”

So anyway - my main mood today is YAY. Lots of YAYs. :)